Cute cupcake day.

I never thought cupcake decorating would be so therapeutic. Today I baked cupcakes with my beloved Teeng-ting. Before today normally when i'd bake cupcakes if I used frosting, it would just be slopped on, eaten, and gone! But today, we decided to try and actually decorate it.

When my family first immigrated to the United States, my dad searched for many different jobs and opportunities. He actually took baking/pastry courses, and had a set of cake decorating tips. I always see that box that's probably 20 something years, and today I took those tips and put them into action.

I've realized you know that I'm actually concentrating, when I don't respond to people talking. Most people know that i'm pretty chatty and love having conversation, but if i'm fully immersed, I just go into a meditative state and feel very relaxed.

Applying the frosting, trying to smooth it out, and attempting to make something decent out of those cake decorating tips sent me into that mental state. Of course things turned out gloopy and funny looking, but when I was spreading the frosting around the cupcake, I felt so peaceful and my mind was ate ease.

It sent me back to a time where I'd often practice Chinese calligraphy, each stroke, and each movement of your hand would instantly shape whatever is in front of you.

Life is moving at a face pace, and it always will be. But being able to find something enjoyable and peaceful is a great way to reground yourself.

I've realized that as people loving as I might be, often times I enjoy peace and tranquility.

Right after the peaceful cupcake making, I met with some friends at a bar. It instantly dawned on me that party-night life is definitely not my preference.  Lounges may still be allright.

It was a compare and contrast one immediately after the other. I felt turned off and somewhat repulsed by some people out there...  It just made me want to spread more frosting on those cupcakes... and seek happiness from within.  =]

NIGHT!

Glad to understand that ignorance is not bliss. Wisdom is much better =]

Cause <-> Effect............ WAHAHHAAHHAH!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYTHING IS SO CONNECTED, THERE IS NO SELF AT ALL! =D

Feeling restless, and still don't know what to do!!!

It's been a year since i've graduated....I just want to have a steady job and have steady income. Doesn't even have to be that much!

I've applied to numerous jobs and internships. Still nothing, until then I'll just continue to work with my parents.

Aiyayayayayyayay.